So I'm thinking, what better way to procrastinate than to add random pictures that I've drawn on tegaki over the past 3 months using my tablet? Admittedly there isn't much...
(  doodles of a different kind... lies> <a href= ) Plus, my physics assignment! ( Read more... )

I mean, why not? Its my journal after all.xD






I wonder if deep down inside, I'm actually a twisted psychopath hiding under a facade of innocence. Mmmmmm.

Random ramblings :

I've discovered a disturbing tendency of mine to second-guess myself in everything to do. I wonder if this is a psychological manifestation of the HORRIBLE in-class bio essay exam that I had to do a few weeks ago. I think it has impacted my psyche so tremendously that I feel doubtful of the quality of my work and this causes me to procrastinate even further.

Sigh.

Everything culminated into one great giant messy ball of humiliation which twisted its way out of my gut and into my brain last Friday when I failed to submit a draft for my Art writing assignment. The worst part was when the HOD (head of department) called on those who did not hand in a draft and proceeded to tell me publicly that she was disappointed in me especially since I am at the top of the cohort. Buuuuuuh. Ironically, it provided the fuel for my current art assignment in all its gory beauty.xDDDDDD

I think I'm peace now. My art teacher pulled me aside and proceeded to talk to me and got me sorted out a bit. About how she understands why I procrastinate - the whole living along thing and doing all the science subjects ( toughies!) plus a subject which focuses a lot on making tasks. She told me that I shouldn't be comparing myself to other students who do the same work and do better because they have the luxury of having their parents cook, clean and transport them to and fro from school. I don't really find it that much of a bother, to be honest, living without my parents. I don't think its really impacted my schoolwork much except during exam times ( we have terrible diets then xD) but I think I've been coping just fine.

I feel so bloody guilty for not doing as much work as I should and I know that it's mostly due to my bad habits.

I don't feel so bad now. Got back my art essay draft with the word EXCELLENT over it. It means, NO CHANGES NEED, YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. Gosh, I sound so boastful here. @__________@ I think I'm going to try my best to stay at the top ; I'm definitely not letting my post go, even though my art captain seems to have gotten into her groove this term, BUT I SHALL NOT LET IT GO. xDDDD WATCH OUT!

I don't really mind posting my RL stuff anymore; no one reads it anyway. xD

Whoot! Two assignments down, and one to go! Actually, two more, but I digress. Tonight was the Oaktree Foundation's fund-raising party, and I, being the unsociable otaku I am decided not to go even though it promised to be a fun-packed evening filled with Guitar Hero, PS3 and food. All for the measly price of 6 dollars. Ah well, spent my time catching up on some needed sleep.

And now, it is currently 12.36 am and I've just spent roughly 2 hours ever since I woke up from my nap to surf the net and watch Ben 10: Alien Force. I blame demitasse-lover's amazing Bevin comics. Oh dear, I get obsesssed too easily. Almost too easily in fact. Sigh.

Bought a lot of Korean snacks to, well, snack on. We really haven't got anything in way of substantial nutrition which does NOT require any form of cooking. Ah, the joys of living alone. Its times like these which make me homesick. Am all aloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooone. I want my mum! My dad! I don't wanna live alooooooooooooooooone anymoooooooooooooooooooooooore. xDDDDDDDD

Beh, its not as traumatic as it seems. Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh.Nyaaaaaaaaa, I just wanna live a free life~ Meh~

For some weird reason, my younger sister and I have started sleeping in the living room. Its quite an experience; all we have to do is drag our mattresses out and just camp there. I luffs eet~ Its really convenient too. xD

On another note. Sever = severe? Pronounciation is the same apparently. Much confusion indeed! Argued with Julie on this for a bit. ITS SEVER DAMNIT!

Back to maths now~ Or starting maths at the very least. Guh.

Another note : My journal sentences seem to consist of disconnected prose, very unlike to my usual long, rambling english sentences at school. Weird much?